The wide and smooth road is always the best to take, isn't it? No bumps, no getting shaken up, no rocks in the way.

In some ways, if I had stayed in the life I knew, I could have had mostly "smooth sailing" so to speak. Barring an unforeseen occurance I could have just coasted for the rest of my natural born days.

The trouble with all of that is that I would have died. Oh, I wouldn't have done it on purpose....I would have just let myself waste away. I know, that's all so freakin' melodramatic, isn't it?

Yeah, I hear tell that one of my son-in-laws is keeping track of my blog postings and claims I have bipolar disorder. Big whoop...that was hard to figure out. I wrote all about it for a blogger friend named Shiloh two years ago on this very blog. He really had to work hard to figure that one out, didn't he? And he claims to be prophetic.........not.

I am the first to admit that I have a low-spectrum case of bi-polar, especially since a doctor actually diagnosed me with it 15 years ago. He also said, and please get this part, that it does not significantly affect my life and that apparently Mr. Hope, who didn't like it when I tried Prozac, LIKED what he called my "expansive personality". Any child who thinks I should be on medication needs to talk to their father about that little tid-bit of information.

I made a decision quite a while ago that I'm not going to worry too much about what my children or in-law children have to say about my mental health. When we took in Gabriel 1 1/2 years ago I was told by one of my daughters, the one who has a penchant for slipping around the blogstream and questionstream calling herself "Foxy Lady", that I was mentally ill THEN.

THE REASON WAS BECAUSE I HAD THE AUDACITY TO TAKE IN A 15 MOS. OLD FOSTER CHILD AT 53 YEARS OLD!

She said that her father was "weak" for not stopping me...as if he had no part of the decision to take Gabriel.

Oh my goodness....I know. THAT is a SURE sign of mental illness, isn't it? To take in a toddler at the age most women are hoping to sit around a little more? I am the first to admit that I don't have quite the energy that I had at 25, but then again, I'm a little smarter now too. Having raised a bunch of kids, I know what to waste my time on and what not to waste my time on. THANK GOD!

I am no longer wasting my time on anyone....and that means ANYONE....
who is going to disrespect me, my choices, my life. When I get told that I have a "mental illness" because I wanted to love one last baby...a crack baby at that, well, I guess it's time to stop listening to the opinion of that person, and any one else who agrees with her, and move on.

And to think that Mr. Hope and I actually considered ADOPTING Gabriel in our old age! What nerve we had, didn't we? As it worked Gabriel is living with loving relatives and I am now free to make different choices for my life. I'm sorry to say that my grown children are not any more pleased with this one than they were the last one.

I was told last night by a fellow blogger that I am being "abused" by another fellow blogger who happened to come to my house for a new start in life 3 mos. ago. I guess I would be more inclined to notice if it weren't for the fact that my family has been abusing me, and my love for them, for years. If Vision is abusing me I have yet to see it....as always, I invite you all to pray for me, and so does he.

The only problem for you will be, that you will have to repent to God first for the mighty judgments you have heaped first on him and then on me without knowledge. God doesn't like it when unrepentant judgmental people pray pious prayers.

Oh, and by the way, before anyone makes judgments about Visions giftings you might want to talk with him first. I mean, judgments from afar are generally known as gossip and slander. The only thing I would warn you about when you talk to him though, is that you might want to be very, VERY honest. If you are not, he can and will 'read your mail' and his track record is 100% at the moment (better than Seattle Slew).

When I started out on my walk with the Lord in 1976 I knew the Bible said that the way would be narrow. Yep, that would be exactly the way it's been! Who knew that in 2008 that one of my son-in-law's would be making hard copies of my blogs to try to prove "mental incompetence" in court, hmmmm? Yeah, I know, taking in Gabriel was SUCH an unsound thing to do, wasn't it? Since all of my fellow bloggers supported me in that decision and were so kind to comment on each pleading post I wrote back then, you may be found culpable. Don't bother looking up the word, Craig. It means "at fault".

If the road I'm taking doesn't seem right to you, please pray rather than make ignorant judgments. Telling me that I am with an abusive man, when you haven't even met him, and gossiping about us, saying that we are sleeping together, when that is pure conjecture and slander, is falling on deaf ears over here.