Well, there ya go........I said it and I did it. I started a new blog called "The Windemere Chronicles". I might change the name later...."The Memoirs of A Quintessential Boomer" comes to mind, but for now I'm going to leave it the way it is. If you know me at all from the Blogstream and you happen to find it, you may find the writing style the same. Someone told me once that I have a distinctive one so that even when I started my private blog a year and a half ago I kept giving myself away. So, I'll just be upfront about it and tell you that even though the "nickname" is different (PeggynJanie will get a chuckle, even if no one else does) it's me. I admit it.......it's meeeeeeeeeeee.

I was thinking as I was handling my finances (ah yeah, POH the financier, can you dig it? ) today that my husband actually did me a huge favor....and I'm not being sarcastic. Making me scrape and save all of those years was really good practice for what I'm going through now. I am soooo frugal and have learned to do quite well with little. Seriously! I am bordering on extremely grateful for the practice! I've never been the Paris Hiltonish kind to begin with but the training I have had at going without is really coming in handy. Again, I want to say that I am NOT being sarcastic. Like Paul said, "I know how to abase and abound". How true that is for me. I have always said that I could win $10,000,000 and still be looking for orange juice at 99 cents a half gallon. It's like with the eggs....I'm just always looking for the deal now. The only extra that I've really spent money on (no, not clothes even though 3/4 of mine were on the camper and I never got them back) is a few plants. I bought a small hibiscus for $5.99 and I named her Laquishetta. I had a larger hibiscus back in NY named Laquisha but I couldn't bring her with me. The suffix 'etta' means 'little' so this is a little Laquisha. She has the prettiest flowers when she blooms. I also bought another large vining plant similar to a hibiscus but I can't remember the name. I'll have to look it up. I bought a cheap tomato cage that I stuck in the pot to give it something to vine onto. It's gonna be purrrrrteeeeee! Wal-Mart had some different begonias on sale so I got some of them too. I always remember that my Mom loved those. They remind me of a simpler time in my life. All of them are doing extraordinarily well. Assuming I stay in this area (you never know with those housewives who like to stay in the fast lane, donchaknow) I will get me some palms when Wal-Mart gets a nice shipment in. I don't want to spend too much right now on things I can't take in the car with me if I have to suddenly up and take off somewhere. For the moment though I feel as settled as I've been of late. We'll see what the future holds.

In spite of the brokenness and pain of this situation, I have to say that the Lord has so "renewed my youth like the eagle". I feel so much healthier than I have in the past five years and my energy level has skyrocketed since last winter when I was so so sick. In fact, since this whole thing started I haven't been sick ONCE and I was getting sick all the time before with things that couldn't be fixed. At least by doctors. Good thing I know 'The Great Physician'. If I never have health coverage again after this year is out I'm actually not going to worry about it. God has done more for me physically, and in every other way, than any doctor could hope to do.

I know that there are people who probably wish they could see me suffering more, and that is not to say that I don't feel some heartache at times, but over all God has been extraordinarily close to me during this time, I've been praying more than ever, especially in my prayer language, and I know that I know that I know that He has not forsaken me. He has a future and a hope for me and I trust in that. He has saved my butt too many times in the past two months for me to question His love and care for me now. I have tasted and seen that the Lord is good and I cling to Him....if not to a bunch of people who want to put THEIR expectations on me....and always have.

One of my daughters told me recently that she would appreciate it if I would stop trying to contact her unless and until I am "truly repentant" for my actions. Say what? You want me to repent to YOU? For what? For loving everyone enough to stay in something for 36 years when I should have left years ago? You need to get another picture of God, my beautiful but deceived daughter. You need to realize that He is not HALF as judgmental as ya'll are. He luh-uh-uhvvvve ME, baby girl. If you choose not to believe that...if you choose to believe that I am a backslidden sinner that's fine. I don't believe that but MY Bible says that "God is married to the backslidder" anyway.

One thing I know....and I do know this....my prayer life has never been stronger. I've seen miracles I could have only hoped to see in my lifetime. God hears and answers my prayers and I thank Him for that daily.

Soooo, here I go again...off to meet the world. Hang in there with me, okay? I love you all.