When all came crashing down around me several months ago there were some who turned their backs on me, in blog life and real life and I suffered great loss.
There were also those who rallied around me though and stood strong for me, prayed for me in a way that I never had had assurance that anyone ever did, and held me up, much like Aaron did for Moses, with their strong arms of faith and love. Some of the ones I expected would stand with me didn't.....some who I expected to reject me didn't. Like I quoted a couple of posts ago....adversity certainly helps you know who really loves you and who your true friends are.
You all know who you are, so I won't go about mentioning names, but I just want to say thank you so much for everything. I couldn't have asked for a better bunch of friends. Belle did a post recently that I just saw taken from a sermon that my man Bishop Jakes did. This is part of it:
LET IT GO ~ By T.D. Jakes
There are people who can walk away from you. When people can walk away from you: let them walk. You don't want to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. Hang up the phone.
When people can walk away from you, LET THEM WALK. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.
The Bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. ~1 John 2:19
People leave you because they are not joined to you. If they aren't joined to you, you can't make them stay.
And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person. It just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over ... So that you don't keep trying to raise the dead.
You've got to know, you've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to ..
LET IT GO
Thank you for that Belle. I lifted it from your blog without permission (I heard you were in the hospital so I didn't want to bother you) but I was certain you wouldn't mind. When I read it I cried. In case you didn't know, I don't like goodbyes. This was hard, hard, hard. I am going to keep this word in my mind and in my heart. I need to hear it often.
I love you all,
POH
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Let it Go! - such a freeing phrase - let it all go - the anger - the past - the former friend that you thought you had - anything that is holding you back - Let it Go... and keep walking forward...
Bravo - Bravo - Bravo- do you hear that?? It's me clapping my hands together and shouting "Bravo"
luv,
n.
I guess I wasn't expecting to lose my whole family in the mix but I am starting to realize that it is them and not me......I know that they are hurt, frustrated, etc. but I have tried so hard to communicate and have been turned away. Like Jakes said, "You don't want to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you". I don't know if he meant in this situation or not but it fits.
I've always known that my husband and I weren't of the "same mind" when it came to alot of things, especially spiritual things. I'm not saying he isn't a Christian...I would never judge that...I just don't know how someone who claims to be one can leave someone they say they love with nothing.
I've tried as hard as I'm going to in order to contact these people that I bore into the world (I'm speaking of my three oldest children). I've worried that my grandchildren will forget me and/or be told terrible things about me. I can't let myself think on those things any more. It grieves me to the point of not functioning well......
I may continue to try to contact them for their sake and for mine but I don't have alot of extra money to spend buying and sending things that are going to get sent back, you know what I mean?
Thank you so much for your support and kind words, n.lynn. You have no idea how glad I am to hear from you.
Please believe me that I have reached that point. I'm there. I won't try to convince people of anything. I'm done with that. But it still hurts to see someone you love change or leave. Words cannot describe that pain...much like betrayal. (which I've also discovered hurts beyond measure)
Thanks PoH. I love you too.