Well, it's done..........in sixty days it will be like any life I had before last spring never existed. Yeah, I guess somewhere in the world, in sealed court records, it will show that it existed, but for all intents and purposes no.......

I have no children who will speak to me. My grandchildren are not encouraged to write to me even though their parents have my address. My mother won't take my calls. My sister's, two of whom have been divorced, one twice, say that I am not welcome in their homes.

Who knew when I asked my husband if we could separate last spring and he was so excited about it that it would turn like this for me? What did I do that was so hurtful....so harmful to my family that they should turn on me like this?

Yes, I will probably get some financial remuneration from the properties. Not as much as he has and will but some. Who cares? All he could talk about was how he was being so generous because he didn't ask more for the furniture that was given away before I left one of the houses. He didn't care that I've lost everything and everyone. That is when I broke and told the court, through tears that they could only hear but not see, that I've lost everything......the family that I created, the grandchildren I adore and waited years for, my own mother..........do you actually think that I care about a few thousand dollars one way or the other? Someone could say, "You should have thought of that before you did what you did." Excuse me? How many other families do you know where every single child, even your own mother and sisters, etc. take the other person's side to your exclusion? My daughter Virginia told me that this was not a "shunning" but that is EXACTLY what it is. It is my 'punishment' for wanting out of a marriage I never should have been in in the first place.

I'm sorry for hurting you all. I am not sorry for being away from a situation where you all feed on each other. Everything is about the money, isn't it? It always has been. Not anymore.....not for me. Not ever again.